Where is Josy? Is she on the couch...
in the bedroom?
in the family room?
in the living room?
In her box?
Or her "bowl"?
Or playing at the catnip infused base?
Getting a drink out of the shower?
Or sprawled on the bedroom carpet waiting for a rubdown?
At the patio door thinking about going outside?
Or actually hanging out outside?
Or, most likely, in her nest in the office/sewing room closet?
No, today she is in none of those places.
Sadly, Josy is gone. She is no more. Over the weekend she suddenly began to fail. She seemed fine on Friday. I had noticed that she was drinking a lot of water lately, but I didn't ask Dr. Google until she took a sudden turn for the worse. By Monday morning when we took her to the vet, she was, as the Doctor said, "a very sick kitty". We left her at the clinic for tests, and got the call back an hour or so later. Josy had feline diabetes, was seriously dehydrated, had a kidney infection and her test numbers were very bad.
Treatment would have required a long hospitalization, intravenous fluids, antibiotics and insulin, and then if that brought her back she would have to have two shots a day for the rest of her life. Not only would Josy have to endure that, so would we, and the price tag would run $4000 to $6000.
We have a choice with our pets. Kitties don't have to live that way. We chose to let her go, as the doctor suggested we might.
We called our son Jake, who first adopted Josy from a shelter as an adult cat and had her for about three years, until he had to change living arrangements and couldn't keep her. We welcomed Josy into our home, and came to love her deeply.
Jake was in agreement with our choice. And so on Monday afternoon, as I held her in my arms, she slipped peacefully away.
This morning, for the first time in five years, I did not get up, put on my fleecy, cat hair infused robe, go downstairs, pick up my kitty, give her a hug, and then fill her food and water dish.
I din't quite know how to start my day.
We will be looking for her for a while yet, but she is gone. We are missing her. We are sad.