It has been a difficult and exhausting week. My emotions have been all over the place.
Initial shock led to grief right after the election. Then anger set in. I have read many articles and comments and participated in online discussions and arguments. I have found much support for my emotional roller coaster and my point of view. I was also exposed to the harshness of those who supported Trump and wanted us whiners to just get over it. Many were insulted that we blamed them for supporting racism, misogyny, bigotry, hatred, lies. After all, many were "just voting for their party". I still believe a vote for Trump was a vote for ignorance and hate.
By Wednesday I had reached the stage where I was just curious about what would happen in a Trump presidency. Then I read more articles about what the Trump presidency might be like that scared the hell out of me and disturbed me deeply. By this morning, Friday, I was ready to fight!
Now, as news begins to leak out from the transition, I realize that we have no idea what Trump will be like as a president. We only know what he was like as a candidate, where anything was allowed as long as it helped him win. The ugliness of that campaign was compounded by the dishonesty and slander of his opponents. Rage was released, bullying was condoned, and it all had the taint of evil.
Trump conned his supporters and his political party. No one knows what he really believed, and I don't think he did either. He just made it up as he went along, based on the boisterous reactions he got from his crowds.
Then reality set in. He won. Oh My God, he was going to be the President of the United States. Even Trump had to be taken back by that realization. He actually had to find a way to be presidential. He met with that good, kind and respectful man, President Obama, and he seems to have come away a bit more of a grown up. I am hearing now that he no longer plans to overturn the Affordable Care Act, but instead to revise it. And it does need some fixing.
The Congressional Republicans, who are in charge of both houses, are in for a bumpy ride. We all are. We really have no idea where any of this is going.
I can only have a glimmer of hope now that President Trump will not resemble Candidate Trump. We have him as our president for four years at least. We need to have some good come out of it. Please.
And still, at the end of this week, I remain deeply sad that I did not have the opportunity to celebrate the election of the first woman to be President of the United States. I have been a supporter of Hillary Rodham Clinton for twenty-five years. I really wanted to be able to call her Madame President.