I make no secret of my politics. I am a liberal, a progressive, a Democrat. I voted for Hillary Clinton and was devastated when she lost. And I was angry that Donald Trump won.
As the day of Trump's inauguration approached, I felt more and more restless. I felt like I should be doing something, fighting somehow, resisting.
I have read many editorials on line from The New York Times, The Washington Post, the New Yorker, hearing many voices that I respect. They warn of not "normalizing" Trump. I have followed the news through mainstream media, debated on Facebook, and even kept up with some of the "tweets". I have been informed by his close adviser, Kellyanne Conway, that we "should not take Donald Trump at face value". We should wait to see what he will do.
Now we are just a day away from turning over the presidency to a man I cannot trust or respect.
I thought about joining a protest march. I looked into the logistics of the Womxns March in Seattle, but lack of access to public transportation would result in a nightmare of traffic and parking problems. I decided to leave marching to others.
When Trump was first elected, I joined others in wearing a safety pin on my jacket, a message of "you are safe with me". Then I read on Facebook that I was a "crybaby wearing a diaper pin", a sore loser, a snowflake needing a safe place, that I should "just get over it, you lost." Those were the nicer labels.
Some say I am not supposed to be angry. I should have hope. Others say I need to give the new president a chance. But nothing I have seen so far gives me hope or stills my anger or leads me to expect that Trump will suddenly be something he is not. And yet, I can't hope he fails, because that means our country fails.
Many people I know and respect are going to boycott the inauguration ceremonies. "Don't watch him, don't listen to him, don't give him the audience he thrives on. "
Friday morning I will be with like minded friends at our usual Friday morning breakfast. There is a TV right by our table. I can watch if I want to. Most likely I will watch some of the proceedings, because I like to have first hand information. I want to form my own impressions and not rely on analysts and pundits. I am also recording it at home, in case I want to listen to Trump's speech.
Others I am with will not want to watch and will turn away and talk over the TV. That's all OK. Maybe being with friends is the right way to lighten up a morning I have been dreading.
I still don't know what I should do. Maybe I'll find out by just living my life.